Good Morning!

A-Bizz-le back at ya!! Hello everyone! I don't know if anyone still clicks on my blog due to that big huge X on my face but just in case I want to still blog at least for a while until I think there is no chance I'll get to come back! (PS-go to the forum and vote me back :))I wish I could work out with the trainers. They were so good...if I ever win the lottery and could afford one, I'd pick Antionne and Matt, FO ShO!! But since I can't right now, I reckon my gym will do! I am just going to tell my boyfriend Ryan some different things we did and get him to push me. It's a ton of a lot easier to push yourself to your limits when all around you is your competition. But the test is, can you still do it when it's only you around? Antionne taught us to compete with yourself always. "Myself" is my best friend and worst enemy. I will now be tested to push myself just as hard even though it's only me. I have Ryan's support but for the most part I will have to learn positive talk...discipline...and personal respect--in a way. I think if I can do this then I will be able to respect myself in knowing that I can be strong enough to do what's best for me. Wish me luck all!! And I will keep ya'll updated with my life "after" and let you know my struggles through this!! Lata playas!!