IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! YAAAAAAYYYY!!

I am sooo glad it's Friday! I can't wait until the weekend to catch up on some much needed sleep! I almost feel asleep this morning driving to training!! That would've been bad! Well, last night we did more cardio and at the end decided on our own to run more stairs (we crazy I know). This morning we did lunges to the wonderful stairs and tackled them again! We eventually climbed all 9 stories again as a team . The trainers were so proud of us! They said that we are doing awesome and really encouraged us! The Food Fighters are gonna win the weigh in!! Our team leader Niki is awesome, she is very vocal and encouraging everyone to lose that weight and push it to do a little extra each day! yaay us! Well, the diet is just so boring to me. Most everyone is just fine with it but the same three meals, no deviations, day after day after day just is so plain! I wish we could mix it up a bit! I won't cheat though I have told myself and no matter what I know I can do it. Plus Kelli is watching me and won't even let the thought enter my head cuz she knows I can do it! Also, my boyfriend Ryan supports me so much. He is thin and ripped and can eat whatever he wants and stay that way but for dinner each night he won't eat anything different from me. He so sweet!!! :) And my baby girl. I miss her so much. Missing them is the hardest for me. I don't get to see them much before I have to head out again. Last night, Anna was already asleep so all I could do was kiss her goodnight. She is smiling and laughing now and I hate missing anything. I keep telling myself that in the long run it'll be best though for me to get healthy finally. I will never turn away from this challenge but just letting people know that the eating and training aren't the only things that become tough in this kind of competition. We are facing many obstacles and the Food Fighters are overcoming each one of them with flying colors. Our trainers are pushing us and we are also pushing ourselves. I can't wait to see results next week and at the end of this competition! Also, did I mention how happy I am it's Friday! Whoop whoop!

Food Fighters are the Bizz-OmB!!

Well, let me start with the fact that before today I liked my team but now I honestly love my team! This is such an awesome experience with them each day. It is sad though because we lost another member of our team. The guy decided not to show up as well. SO we are down to eight lovely ladies with the biggest hearts ever! We all want this so bad! Last night, we worked out for 2 hours busting our butts. It was probably the hardest one yet plus we climbed 9 stories of stairs...that's 18 flights!! Our trainers love those stairs but hey, if by doing those darn things I can look like them (but in a girl way:)) I will keep doin those stairs!! Did I mention our trainer models?!!? Awesome! Anyways, so last night when I got home I told my boyfriend Ryan all about the day, almost threw up!, and saw my beautiful baby girl :), and before I knew it, it was 4:15 am time to go again! This morning we did hard cardio and abs for a little over an hour. My legs are getting worse it seems but at the same time it is getting easier. It's weird. I love the training I love the push I just want to be so fine one day soon!! It'd be just in time for bathing suit weather too! Then I won't have to wear a skirt or shorts around me I can be whoo hoo too sexy mama!! I am still doing great on my diet. Yesterday I didn't eat exactly what was on the list, I left some things out and was very dizzy so I definately won't do that again! I didn't have my eggs because I forgot to cook them and didn't have my veggies at lunch either! I was just so tired I didn't cook them early enough and bring them. See I have to make everything the night before and bring it to work so I was just so sleepy! Well, this afternoon we go again so I wonder what the rest of the day will bring! We shall see!

Weigh Ins and Two a Days

So, this morning we did weigh-ins and I lost 6.5 lbs.!!!! From 251 to 244.5 in just a couple of days! This is awesome! That was a great reinforcement for my diet to continue and for me to know I can lose this weight! But, our trainers are pretty upset now. The other team has been doing two a days and have a cumulative loss of 56 lbs while we have 47 lbs total loss. Antionne does not like losing so we will, tomorrow, begin two a days. I personally don't like losing either and so I know this is best for us but I hope my legs will continue to work!! They are hurting so bad! I was sitting in bed last night watching TN lose (whoop whoop!) and then next thing I know I was asleep! My body just needs rest! We train tonight at 5 and will go at least two hours they said of cardio as well as weights. I really love this experience and sometimes get the feeling some people don't like me because I used to play ball. That has nothing to do with the situation. I still need significant weight loss. My body is so out of shape and unhealthy. Just because I like sports and like training doesn't mean I don't need this just as much as everyone else. I am tall so I carry my weight and it's all spread out everywhere. It also doesn't mean I am better than anyone at anything. I just push myself until I feel I can't go anymore. I try to give 200% and don't let my mind beat me. I am just venting a little because I got some weird feelings from people this morning. But in the long run, if they get to know me they will see that I pull my part. I want everyone to do great. Rachel-AWESOME! I just picture you yesterday not wanting to do those stairs but not saying a word and just pushing that extra mile to get up them and finish. That's why you lost 11 lbs! Congrats! Well, that's all for now-oh except for....KENNEDY!! I can't believe you didn't stop to help me!! That's messed up! :)

OH what a DAY!!

OH, what a morning I had!! So, I leave my home to get to training around 4:20am...I am driving down the interstate and then at 4:32am BOOM, I have a blow out!!! My tire is shreaded!! FABULOUS RIGHT!?! Well, I don't have a phone at the moment as of it fell out of the window and got ran over on the interstate, so...moving on, I think ok it's freezing, windy etc... and I'm on the side of the interstate by Lamar but I know how to change a tire and if I hurry I won't be too late. So, I get everything out and then the jack doesn't work!!!! THIS IS NOT HAPPENING TO ME!! So, of course I start crying, I am freezing, I'm gonna be late, I don't have a phone, etc...this is terrible. So I wave my arms frantically for about 40 minutes and NO ONE STOPS to help me!! Come on Memphis! My flashers goin everything but finally a man who didn't even speak English too well stops and has a jack and changes my tire for me!! THank the LOrd!! So I run into training 20 minutes late and start rollin! I feel terrible because I hate being late! I worked my butt off this morning, or tried to anyway and actually in abs held my feet 6 inches the longest to be leader for next week! I was so proud of myself! I was so proud of my team this morning also. THey worked so hard and no one even cared how sore they were! I would love to be the leader of a group like the Food Fighters. I think everyone is their own leader though, everyone is so encouraging and though I had a terrible morning, after training I actually felt better:) I also stayed after to make up for being late and did the wonderful stair master! Oh, and of course the day I come in crying and late, Latty is there video-taping training! So I know I looked Awesome for that one! Well, I am also doing very well on my diet. I drink water all day and only eat what's on the sheet they gave us. I am proud of myself for that because that is probably my biggest challenge. I also am excited and anxious about the weigh-in in the morning. I haven't weighed myself since Saturday(the day we started) and I'm very curious to what that darn scale says! Well, on with the day and in hopes to soon not be in pain just from standing up from the soreness!!

Note to Self

Sooo....I am at work and just got up to walk to the printer and I can't feel my legs....OH MY GOSH! I am not even joking, I cannot feel my body at all! This is crazy! Just a note to self....Refrain from walking much if at all possible and definately stretch later because as my BFF KG said this is only the beginning, it's only gonna get worse, J/K but no seriously!!!!!!!!!! Awesome!

The First Day!!

OMG!! This morning was crazy!!!!!! These trainers are no joke and you know what....I LOVE IT!! They are pushing everyone to their limits and they are serious about helping us. I played college bball and this kicked a lot of our pre-season workouts beHinD!! For sure!! At first when that alarm went off at 4:00 I was like, Oh no just a few more minutes!! But then when I walked in to the gym, I guess the competitiveness in me set in and I was so ready. I am so motivated to finally lose weight it's ridiculous. Even playing ball though I never lost any weight I only maintained which is crazy but now with them training me and with this diet I will tell you about, there is no doubt in my mind I can finally do this. Oh, and about this diet. IT is CRAZY! No salt, no sugar, no bread, no dairy, no nothing almost! At first we must discipline our bodies I guess and boy is it hard. It is so hard to watch others eat and be like, " I will never get to eat that again!" My boyfriend the other day even told me how proud he was of me for actually sticking to the diet because I started Saturday. And that will make you feel good right there to have people around you realize how much this means to you. I truly want this more than ever I think, because for once I feel that looking great and feeling wonderful is within my grasp. Now, whether or not I will feel my body in the morning or even this afternoon is another story!! But I will push through! I am proud of my team too. I want them to know that when they get to the point where they feel like they cannot possibly push any further, push a little harder, bring your heart into it. You will be amazed what you are truly capable of! I brought it this morning and plan to do so every morning no matter what and I know we are all gonna be so FizZ-iNe when this is over!!!!!!!!! I can't wait!! Don't worry more later!

The End of Some things but the beginning of others...

Well, tomorrow we meet with the trainers and Monday the journey begins!! I am so ready it is ridiculous! I have wanted this for so long and just needed the chance for some help. I can't help but think of things that will be changing. First of all, no more fast food! It's sad but true. I have bad habits of eating fast food because it's just that: fast, easy, and CHEAP! I mean what healthy food comes on a dollar menu!?! And no cokes! I just love a cold Mountain Dew now, don't play! But if I think of new things coming I don't even care about food. To finally have confidence to finally know that "hey, I look good!" will be the best feeling in the world. To know that I can lean in to take a picture without either my arm taking up the pic or my stomach hanging over my pants will be AWESOME! To not be so nervous and afraid come summer and wonder at the beach "I wonder if anyone is looking at me?" instead of enjoying the freakin beach! To not to have to try and hide my midsection or to actually be able to wear jeans again instead of stretchy pants!!! Oh, I am getting so excited!!! I also think with my history of playing sports I have a bit of an advantage...I am very competitive, very passionate esp. if I truly want something, and most of all, I am used to a trainer/coach up in my face telling me how much I suck and I can take it and use it as motivation instead of getting upset. I want this more than ever and I want to lose like 90 to 100 lbs. I don't know if it's possible in 8 weeks but if it is I will do it! I am going to work my butt off everyday and will compete for this, for all the prizes from Cancun to a better me I want it all! Ok, that's it for now!

Why I want to be Memphis' Biggest Loser!

Hi everyone! It's Ash! I want to be Memphis' Biggest loser because I have struggled with my weight all my life. Even when I was thinner, I always had a distorted view of myself as fat. I want to finally be able to feel like I am beautiful, confident, and show so many people that anyone can do it. To be an inspiration to others while achieving a personal goal will be that much more rewarding! I have had people in my life always point out my weight to me along with pointing it out to everyone else. It's hard when you are a tall girl as well, because you get noticed anyway for being taller than half of the people around you and then they also notice how big you are! It's sucks! I want to prove to myself I have the willpower to do anything I put my mind to. I want to ensure that ten years down the road I will be healthy for my baby girl and my man as well. I want to finally be healthy and happy with myself in and out! I want to look as pretty as I feel inside. I want this so bad and am willing to do anything for this and I will not let this opportunity pass me by!!