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wow, these idiots are tickin me off today!! what the heck! The girl who wrote on the forum I swear knew exactly what to say to make me wanna fight a ho in the parking lot!!!!! I was already mad this morning that someone didn't show up again. Dude...if they didn't want to put their all into this, there was people who did... AKA A-Bizz-le!! It makes me wonder, if I had made a different decision before would I still be there?? Oh well, it wasn't in the cards but oh for just a few more weeks is what I keep wanting!! I tell you what, it's easier to follow the diet and all when you're there. When you're out, you have to realize that even though you're tired, go work out etc...It gets down to competing with yourself and all. I hope someone on the Food Fighters wins so bad! I tell you what that other idiot who wrote something about Niki OH MY GOODNESS! Niki is bad "A" for real!! She rocks everyday. She has lost so much weight she looks like a totally different person! It's awesome! She never stops with the exercises and I know won't give up until she wins this thing! I love it! But anyways...I gotta get to work, but ewwww weeee people makin me get crunk in here today boy!!

Monday morning!

Good morning! Yeah, I'm still here! I had a great weekend! It was so nice out all weekend! I almost watched basketball all weekend though!! With this March Madness going on all I do is watch the games even though my bracket is totally screwed up!! I worked out and played a little bball outside but it was still a little too cold for that but I am also making great decisions with my diet!! If I'm not drinking water I try some Crystal Light to spice things up a bit! I miss and don't miss waking up at 4am! It's weird, I love spending more time with my little girl and Ryan and not waking up when it's dark outside but I miss the workouts. I miss being pushed so hard each day and having a great team around me!! What a great experience this was though but I know that even without it I can still do this. OH and this morning I tried on these pants....I won't specify the size because it is still big because being so tall I will always wear a "big" number....but I put them on and they zipped!! I tried putting them on like 1.5 weeks ago and they didn't fit!! I was soooo happy but now that makes me want to get even smaller to where they don't fit and where they're hanging off!! That would be awesome!! Those are the kind of things that make this losing weight worthwhile! Well, off to work but I will still keep everyone updated fo sho!!! :)

Good Morning!

A-Bizz-le back at ya!! Hello everyone! I don't know if anyone still clicks on my blog due to that big huge X on my face but just in case I want to still blog at least for a while until I think there is no chance I'll get to come back! (PS-go to the forum and vote me back :))I wish I could work out with the trainers. They were so good...if I ever win the lottery and could afford one, I'd pick Antionne and Matt, FO ShO!! But since I can't right now, I reckon my gym will do! I am just going to tell my boyfriend Ryan some different things we did and get him to push me. It's a ton of a lot easier to push yourself to your limits when all around you is your competition. But the test is, can you still do it when it's only you around? Antionne taught us to compete with yourself always. "Myself" is my best friend and worst enemy. I will now be tested to push myself just as hard even though it's only me. I have Ryan's support but for the most part I will have to learn positive talk...discipline...and personal respect--in a way. I think if I can do this then I will be able to respect myself in knowing that I can be strong enough to do what's best for me. Wish me luck all!! And I will keep ya'll updated with my life "after" and let you know my struggles through this!! Lata playas!!

Good-Bye All

Well, as you know this is A-Bizz-le signing out for the last time. This really sucks. I loved working out with the trainers. I am really sad that this is over!! It was awesome! I am so happy that I got this opportunity! thanks to forever fit for doing this for free! that is amazing! Antionne you are such a great trainer, Matt...you are too :) I know we gave ya'll crap sometimes but you always seemed to find a way to make us smile at 5:00 in the morning! And that wasn't just because ya'll were so good looking :)haha just kiddin...but seriously....:) Also, I best be gettin an invite to go out with ya'll all later and I'll show you why my nickname is Happy Feet! lol. And to 107.5, ya'll are awesome! I loved the station before but after meeting ya'll, I like it even better! I love Kennedy even though she left me on the side of the road :) You are too funny! I am definately gonna miss ya'll! And to everyone out there...vote A-Bizz-le back on!! I am never going to forget this experience and this will definately change my life. This gave me a new confidence in myself that I can actually have self control and I can do whatever I put my mind to. I had a good week, but some had better so I got sent home. That's just the way it is sometimes. There is no hard feelings per say, but I didn't see a unanimous decision coming my way. I do know though that overall, 22.25 lbs in 3.5 weeks is great! I am proud to say that my lowest weight loss in a week was 4.75 lbs and that's something to hold my head up about. I also believe that everything happens for a reason. I wasn't meant to win but it was meant for me to have this experience and meet all of these wonderful new people who will now be a part of my life. And Karson and Kennedy, I'll be coming to party with ya'll sometime soon, so don't worry, A-Bizz-le will still be around!! Hopefully in the next month ya'll won't even recognize me because I will be SO fizzine! Aww wait I am already:) just then I'll be a skinnier version! :) I only have good things to say, this was great. I am happy also that I lost this much weight fairly and by down right bustin my behind each day! Thanks to everyone again! Keep in touch and oh yeah...Vote me back!

P.S.......

P.S.- I am so freakin jealous of all the teachers on spring break! How awesome would that be! I would love to sleep and workout and just chill but no, work everyday and I can't even take off because it's a fairly new job!! Oh well, I admit I am jealous and also admit I will soon consider a career change!!!! :)

Weigh in is tomorrow...again!

Well, so far when I check that scale is not being as nice as usual but hey there is still one more day until weigh ins. It just sometimes makes me nervous because I don't want to ever even be close to the bottom two. I know it'll probably happen to everyone once, but I'm just not ready to be done with this part of my life! This is an experience that I'll look back on and know it made a huge difference in my life. Even though waking up so early makes me in such a bad mood, as soon as I get there I'm over it! I love our trainers too! They have become so cool over the past weeks and we are all just now getting to be friends not just teammates or competitors. The thing is with our team though, from now on eliminations will more than likely be done according to who our biggest competition is. We're down to the nitty gritty folks!! Our diet was changed again to you got it...no fruit. I put no exclamation point here because I am NOT happy about it. It changed over the weekend and now it's only fish and veggies for lunch and dinner every day...what can I say, the diet is the part I hate the most but is the most crucial part of survival in this competition!! But anyways...wish me luck tomorrow morning, I'll be talking some sense in that scale later today so maybe it'll wisen up!

Back to life...back to reality!!!

I had to write in green cuz it's St. Patty's day! I'm a little sad because no goin out on st. patty's this year but don't worry I have two a day workouts to keep me busy alright!! This morning was hard core weights. We even did chest stuff! I've lost enough "weight" there and don't want to lose much more there if you know what I mean!! Can't it start coming more from a little lower than the chest area???!?!But it was good, hard but good. Oh and I now am being called Happy Feet. Friday afternoon we did ladders. Now, from playing basketball...we have always had to do ladders so I was actually good at them! I was excited too because I stink at running because of course, I am 6'2" and not the quickest by far but ladders I can do and I'm not terribly slow at them either! Antionne and Matt were impressed but I was a little too because they are so hard and I used to hate them. It's funny cuz now we do so many other hard things I guess something familiar yet hard was cool to do. tomorrow morning we are doing measurements. I never feel like I get any smaller from measurements but hopefully it's just cuz i see myself everyday but I am excited but not excited at the same time. Hopefully gravity will one day be on my side!! Well, off for another excel class for work! I'm sure it'll be a blast! :)

Sunday night!

Well, today I had my nephew's b-day party but thankfully only a small cake for him to eat! It was good though because everyone knew what i was doing and told me how awesome it was etc... and that it'll be so worth it so I was very thankful for that! I did my cardio plus played basketball outside because it was a gorgeous day and that's about it! I know this will be a tough week so I'm tryin to get ready for it!!

Saturday!

Well, today was definately a long day!! It seems on the weekends I think I will get to rest but no...there is so much I have to catch up on!! Plus, this weekend is my nephew's 1st birthday so I'm helping get his party ready! Anyways, did a little cardio today inside cuz it was yucky out but tomorrow I plan on working out with cardio and some weights with my boyfriend!! Fun stuff! Well...off to watch a movie and then get some shut eye! Later all!

It's My B-day!!!!!!!!

Well, hello all! today is my birthday! I am so happy but sad...no cake for me! I will have to have another birthday celebration later on and have a cake! But that's cool! :) Well, last night Antionne had us run outside. No not straight running...running up hills forward, backward, and even sideways!! And then sprinting! I must say it was nice outside though. I was exhausted though but my team decided afterwards on our own to run a few more stairs... no wait not a few...9 stories! Sometimes I wonder if we are insane...:) This morning I come to workout and my wonderful girls have gotten me a birthday present! They are so sweet! I got some Memphis t-shirts...one a size down because they know I'll be wearing that soon! Thank you so much to my team and trainers, that was so nice! They definately make my time worthwhile and I really love them crazy girls! Well, off to take an Excel class all day long! Whoo hoo! Talk to you later all!!

Oh for a Nap...just a little one!

Well, last night Sgt. Slaughter killed us! I can't believe I made it. It was very tough...we did a series of lunges, jumping jacks, push ups, squats, and abs over and over six times one min each thing and then weight circuits and then guess what??!?!? you got it...The StAiRmOnStEr! Of course level 14 again same as last time. I was so tired!! My heart was pounding out of my chest! But then again, it was a great workout! You could tell that by my arms shaking from fatigue when i kept trying to do more push-ups...I despise push-ups. Mostly because I weigh entirely too much for me to push that much or even half that much weight up! Maybe one day soon I will be able too, one can only dream right??? This morning was more cardio and we were informed by the Sergent that our workouts will pick up even more because since there is less people we can get more in!! Wish me luck because I will need it! Oh and I hope I can get over this junk in my throat because right now I am pretty sure there are razor blades going down it! But...OH well! And I am with Niki...come on, let us fat people get a little sympathy Sgt.!!! lol! But it's probably good he doesn't because it kinda makes us work harder so he'll respect us more...or to me it does! But okay, that's all for now!

WEIGH INS WHOO HOO

This morning was weigh ins and I lost 4.75 lbs! That's awesome! I was a little nervous about this week only because my body didn't feel like it was letting go of anything but I stuck with it, both exercise and diet, and when I do that I always see results! That's 17.25 lbs overall! In two and a half weeks! Yesterday I struggled so bad though. My body feels exhausted half the time. I fall asleep during the day at my desk and I barely even want my food anymore. My body or mind is definately rejecting that crap! I eat it just because I have to but I hate everything now! It's sad really but I'll get over it hopefully! I am very happy about my weight loss...I can finally see some toes down there! lol! This morning my team and I had fun and laughed a ton. We are really getting to know one another and it'll be hard these next eliminations. Well, to work I go, no power nap before work this morning but hopefully no one will notice if I fall asleep!! :)

Yuummmm Popcorn!

Sooo a lady at work just made the most delicious smelling buttery popcorn ever in life and I sit right beside her!!!!!!! Oh it is now time for me to bust out my afternoon snack immediately! My orange.....it doesn't sound as good as that popcorn smells but hey it's pretty tasty I must say! I can just pretend it's pocorn right????...or maybe chocolate.....lol!!!

To clarify myself...

Well, I was told earlier that I didn't sound like myself on the radio, that I was slick kinda mean!!! Oh my gosh! That is so not me! It's hard for me to open up to people I don't know especially when it's live on the radio. What do you say except what comes to your mind! If you know me, you know I am far from mean and I am really just a big dork! I said this morning that it was a competition and that a team member leaving sucks but at the same time, that's someone else I don't have to compete for the win with. I guess it kinda sounds mean but that's just the facts really. I don't want people to quit at all no matter what. It is one of those things in life that is so, so hard but if you can make it through you will become a better person, a stronger person. That's what I want for everyone, not just me. Especially getting to know each person, you see that you all aren't so different after all. You see that others have the same struggle and I know all that is still on the Food Fighter team will not stop pushing. We all want to better ourself so badly and I want that for me and all involved in this competition!! So I hope I didn't sound mean! k that's all! :)

I'm Tired!!!

Boy I am tired today! I guess yesterday really took it out of me because this morning I could barely get out of the bed! I rolled over and pushed snooze so fast. That's really not a good thing though because at 4am you best just get out of bed or you could end up back sound asleep so fast! But I got up and we did more cardio this morning! Tryin to burn those calories! On another note, I want my boyfriend Ryan to know how much I love him. Although it seems the only struggles we have are with the diet and exercise, that's not the case. This competition turned my life upside down. I have a baby now, not a toddler, a three and a half month old and she comes first. The babysitter takes the kids at 7...well, Ryan goes to work at 5:45 and I am obviously gone at 4:15 so we either pay extra money for the babysitter to wake up or Ryan's brother has so kindly kept her some if he could and then dropped her off. These people are all going out of their way for me and I thank them so much. But I know it's hard for them. Paying the babysitter extra will definately dip into my wallet to a place that already doesn't have much there! I hope they know that I know what a big thing they are doing for me! And it's not for too much longer so hopefully all will work out. I know I've said it before but Ryan and Anna (my daughter) are my strength and I could not be doing this without him going out of his way each day for me. Thanks baby! I hope I win this so we can have the money to get married and go to Cancun...whoo hoo!!! Can't wait!! Alright off to work again but oh what I'd give for a nap!!

Thanks!

I was just thinking while sitting here at work of a something I am thankful for. First of all, although I am sore most of the time, complain more than ever, and at times this definately SUX in so many ways.....I am so thankful for this oppurtunity. Without karson and kennedy I would not be here. So many people tried out for this and I am one of the lucky ones chosen. I am not sucking up just making an observation :) This has truly already been a life changing experience so if and WHEN I make it to that final week it will be the biggest reward of my life...well besides my baby girl :). At the rate we are going we will all meet our goals and if we don't in this competition, we will on our own. Like Antionne said, this is a lifestyle change and we are all buying into that and seeing that we can do it. Until this, I never thought I could do it. I used that as my excuse...I would say, Hey I play basketball and still can't lose the weight I obviously just can't do it so why try. But after the results I see already, OBVIOUSLY I can. I thank K & K for this competition. They couldn't have found better trainers either. Any blame for eliminations, blogs, etc...thrown at ya'll is ridiculous because if you step back and think about it...we wouldn't be here if not for ya'll. We'd or I'd still be at home saying, I just CAN'T and never know that I really actually can. i just wanted to make sure through all the drama, that you know what a great thing you're doing for all of us involved. Thanks you guys! We appreciate ya!

P.S.--reading through this I really do sound like a kiss booty huh??!!! Oh well! Just stating the obvious! :)

Wow...and did I mention Ouch!?!

This morning was definately WoW! They kicked our butts this morning! We did weight circuits again but definately harder, push ups (which I don't know if I mentioned I HATE more than anything....Niki said it well, my hands told me there was a weight limit and I was definately exceeding it!), dips (droppin it Low, low, Low, low, low, low), and then some abs but the finale....StairMONSTER! Oh my gosh, 2, 2 min sessions at the hardest level it will go on (alternating with bike so no resting)....Which is 14 and I can barely do level 3 for 15 min!!! It was so hard but worth it when April told me she literally saw my buttocks get smaller while I was on it! That's halarious but she definately made me feel better just from that! I know the soreness is on it's way. It's good though because it's like by the end of each week we get the hang of something and then they are like, "Oh, nope we are steppin it up a notch...maybe a few notches today!!" It's good though because then maybe our bodies will keep up with the flow and drop pounds, I dread that wall they speak of when our bodies don't want to let go of the fat....Trust me body...we can let some GO!!! Fo SHO!! Aiight....off to the J-O-B! Talk to you later after tonights workout!

Sunday

Today has been a long day! Played some outside b-ball along with my cardio today and had a blast! It was a beautiful day! Now, all I know is it's late and 4:00 is coming all too soon! Until the morning!! Lata!

Saturday!

Well, I finally got my computer working here at home! Yaay! I got to sleep in today which I am super happy about and I got to wake up to snow! That doesn't happen often around here! Me and my boyfriend had a snow fight and now I am off to do some cardio at our gym and go play some basketball! You know I can't get enough of it! Maybe for extra cardio we'll play full court one on one! Bring it! Talk at you later all!

IT'S FRIDAY ONCE AGAIN!

It's Friday once again and I love it! Only because Saturdays we don't have to wake up at 4 to work out---we get to go later in the day! So I get to sleep in! Whoo hoo! My body needs some extra sleep! Always! Well, you would think after all this time maybe my body was getting used to doing a lot of these exercises....you would think....but NO it's NOT! My buttocks is so sore today from lunges yesterday it's ridiculous! Also, doing the stairstepper almost each day I keep thinking it'll get better, but it doesn't, it's sheer torture on that machine! We have a love hate relationship I guess! We have more cardio this afternoon and I am already ready for Wednesday's weigh in! I just want to know how I'm doing but like to be surprised each week so I don't weigh myself everyday. I just go with the game plan and then on Wednesday's find out what's going on with my weight and measurements, that way I'm even more excited! Well, until lata playas!

Thursday!!

Good Morning! This morning was weights day! We lifted over and over it feels like ONE million times! It feels good to be sore though. It's weird because something about it makes you feel like you are losing all that fat everywhere you're sore. I love it! I wish that was literally true though so I'd lose it faster and be super fine right now!! I love workouts but I hate being sleepy. I'll get over it though!! Sleep is only minor, right!?! OH gosh, that forum we have now to write on! That's awesome but they want a little drama so we are giving it I guess! It's all in good fun because at the end of the day that stuff doesn't matter. All that matters is if we are working our tails off and we are showing results! I can't wait for 6 1/2 more weeks! Tonight is cardio...let's get it on!!

Wednesday Night!!

Hello all! Well, tonight we did something new...we ran outside as the sun was setting!! Sprints up a ramp, walk down, sprint up, down, etc...It was nice to do something new. Afterwards though we got to do the same old wonderful stairs though!!! Up and down 9 stories 3 times! I am so sleepy though and I just hope I can get over 5 hours of sleep! If not, I may just fall asleep at work!! Not good!

I'm feelin Fine BABY!!

This morning we went to workouts at 5am and then to weigh in at 5:45. The Food Fighters had their game faces on this morning!! I have lost another 5.75 lbs!!! That's a total of 12.5 lbs!! I cannot believe I have lost that much weight in 9 days! It is truly unbelievable to me! I feel so much better though in and out already. I can see my self a few months from now looking and feeling sexy as heck! ( I gotta keep it censored!) I am so ready for that day to be now though. It's hard not to be impatient. Well, at the radio station they had cupcakes and twinkies out and Mountain Dew! They are so wrong for that...I mean to be tempting at least have the Mountain Dew be ice cold now! All I could think of though is that I have lost 12.5 lbs and if it takes me waiting a long time until maybe I get to a point where I can drink that and not gain 5 lbs I will wait. It's worth it to me to resist that now knowing that with my trainers help and my own drive I can one day be at that point. And who knows maybe when I'm there I won't even want it as bad! That'll be the day! THE DAY I am looking forward to! Now, as always I am encouraged to continue with the game plan and make this happen!! On a much sadder note...we had to vote someone off this week. Monika is gone and I can't tell you how hard that is to vote someone off. Everyone that was left on our team worked our tails off everyday and it just plain sucks to have to send someone home. I loved Monika from day one! She was so funny and never would give up on herself; that's why I know she will continue to keep it up at home. It's hard though but we will keep going and always pushing because we know each week this journey ends for someone in this competition. It's encouraging though to know that we all will now be able to make the lifestyle change needed. After one week, we all have pretty much turned our worlds around and we now see that we can do it if we put our minds to it. Anyone can so never give up!! :) All for now! Lata Playas!!!

Weigh In is Tomorrow!!

Hello all! Well, weigh in is tomorrow and I am so excited! We did measurements and I know I've lost inches as well as weight! Last night we did the most stairs ever imaginable but got through them all. This morning we did our usual kick butt cardio and sweated it out! I thought our diet was changing but no, just taking out certain breakfast things, like the wonderful wheat toast, and add one ounce of plain old fashioned oats! I am thrilled.....can you tell...???!?!! No, but really if I can keep seeing results like this I will eat whatever they tell me to eat! Well, almost! :) People around me at work are already noticing I have lost weight and it feels great. One, that they're noticing and two, that I overall feel healthier. Even though that's true, I am still so sleepy all the time. During the week, it's too hard to find enough time to sleep! From workout to work to workout to home to get ready for the next days work and workouts-- it seems I can't ever sleep long enough!! Plus, now my body desires sleep because it's working so hard! Well, sometimes I try to just take 15 min of my lunch break and have a power nap and it helps a little. That's about it besides the fact that I never thought I'd be excited about getting on a scale in the morning but I am! Bring it on!

This morning!

This morning we got at it again. We did weight circuits with arms and legs and then some cardio at the end. I loved the weight circuits. They were hard but you could definately feel the burn. We also did some incline press with the bar. I have never done a 25 on each side...not even during bball on incline press. Well, they set me up with it and did almost all with no spot and in the end with them spotting me I pushed my hardest and got er done!!. That bar just sometimes feels like it won't move! Well, then close to the end like the clumsy person I am I twisted my ankle doing step ups! I wasn't looking at the step and just landed my foot completely sideways. Of course! You know something has to happen to me so I can keep it interesting!! Well, it hurt pretty bad but I went ahead and did the bike anyway at least. I have turned my ankles so many times I know the level at which I turn it each time due to the degree of pain I feel. Pretty sad huh!?! I am not letting this hold me back from anything though. I will just continue to try and be mentally tough and just add this to my list!! I also wanted to shout out to Karson that I heard on the radio this morning that he has adopted the Food Fighters as his team. I must say...BRILLIANT DECISION on your part!!!! You have made a fabulous choice and just so you know, losing those two people did not hurt this teams spirit. It did nothing but help it. Seeing people give up just lets us see that we want it that much more. We aren't quitters. Our spirit is as high and ever and this week we are feeling better than ever and more determined! So, GREAT decision with the food fighters!! :)

Recap and looking ahead

Sorry all, I don't have internet at my apartment yet but let me recap on Friday and my weekend......
Recap: I would entitle friday afternoon as "Breakdown" because that's what I had. I have just had so many things happen to me lately and the stress of the workouts, diet change, etc...just wore me thin. At workout I just started crying due to some issues and just did so while working out. I had a mini-breakdown almost but then felt better afterwards! I was fine, it's just one of those times when things go so wrong but if you know me you know I just say Oh well! And move on!!!! I can't quit anything I start, I can't do something and not try my hardest, I just can't. That's the only times I can say the words can't. I must say this day was one that I learned a lot about myself and others in the process and also learned that some things are not what they seem. Also, as a person, you may mean well, but always watch yourself because you never know if someone will try to twist your words, so always be aware of you. That's all you can do really. If you talk the talk then walk the walk, right!?!
This weekend: This weekend, Saturday I slept until 7 am! Whoo hoo not 4 am! My baby girl also decided she would be the angel that she is and sleep until 7! She normally wakes up at 5 or so! I felt much better! I did some cardio and a lot of crunches but tried to give my legs a much needed rest. I stuck with my food and made good choices! On Sunday, I play on a church league basketball team. One week ago yesterday when I played I was breathing hard, wanting to never run down the court only jog, I was exhausted after 5 minutes, etc... I even would volunteer to take the ball out so I could trail and jog down the floor!!! Yesterday, the difference was amazing! I ran down the court everytime! The difference in my lung capacity is unreal after just one week of training! I feel like I have been training for months! Me and Kelli kept running fast breaks! Me---run a fast break and LIKE it!!! I also kept telling myself run block to block no matter what and then if I ever didn't, I'd hear Ryan say..."Block to block missy!!" Everybody is there for me and won't let me slack even the slightest! It's what you love and hate at the same time! That's why I love our trainers so much because they won't let us quit either. They could too. This is not for them, they could let us just say it's too hard and quit, but they won't. It's pretty awesome knowing someone you don't even know wants this for you almost as much as you want this for yourself.